Friday, July 30, 2010

ashes

 

his ashes are under this. the person i believed in. who asked me to believe in him.
i think he was sincere, in this asking. i think it was real.
but
then...he couldn't follow through.
When someone can't follow through, who do you
blame?
there is no blame.
but there is, always, some kind of truth.
it is the forever looking for the real, soft, loving truth that
has worth.
i think of Jude's being. she is talking about this.
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13 comments:

Patty said...

Oh my. This brings to mind someone in my own life who couldn't follow
through-at least this lifetime-and
took his own life. This photo reminds me that resting between lives may be the chance to get it right the next time. This is why I offer prayers for his rest to be a choice of new ways open for him.

Your photos/work are becoming catalysts for others, Grace. I can enter them and leave refreshed.

jude said...

i like ashes. they represent something true. i have many thoughts but they are not words yet.

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

patty and jude ~ thanks for
your words. i got up this morning very early and thought about deleting this post...but sometimes i am needing to be completely honest. i'd spent the
day with the two older people censoring my words because neither of them allow others to be honest
and at the same time, deny this if you try.
so..thanks. your words mean that
it was ok to leave it.

nandas said...

jude's wild angel beast, your acceptance of what was, finding the soft truth that comes eventually. i know, too. it has great worth and it is sometimes told by spirits. it is the spirit that can let it loose.

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

nance..."it is sometimes told by
spirits"
this is an extremely well put
thought
and i think, what if we refuse to
listen...
thank you for this, very much.

Marti said...

Joan Erikson has a great quote: "A good life is like a weaving. Energy is created in the tension. The struggle, the pull and tug are everything." And sometimes, the unraveling teaches us more than we can understand about loving someone, about ourselves, and especially about what is of deepest value.

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

marti ~ yes that is a truly great
quote, but it's your words that
are even greater.... "And sometimes
the unraveling teaches more than
we can understand about loving..."
i think this is a thought than
can take a long time to be with..
thank you

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

a thought
that
can take a long time to be with

Patty said...

Oh! I had a tiff with mom on Thursday about a difference of opinion on how to counsel a young
one (tough love vs loving support...at the expense of the young one's growth). I think we need to be honest, even if it means we
aren't 'good girls' but make loved ones aware of reality. Brave is best.

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

patty...how interesting, your
comment here. i just finished
watching jude's last segment on
the Beasts...and i understand now
a little about how all this cloth
stuff is seeping into everything.
it's not a matter of any one way
at all, it is so many ways, and
one way will be the best way at
a certain intersection, but another
way will be the best at another.
or....oh yikes....maybe not?! just
different and we might even do
totally the opposite!
i guess this is why i am feeling
really like i am at the edge of
totally new territory lately...
the stitching has opened something
for me that is completely uncharted and a "make the map as you go" kind of world.
thank you for tripping off this
train of thought, this understanding........

Kathy said...

grace - and patty - I think another thing we may have in common....I offer those same prayers

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

kathy, yes. but he is a strip of
the weft.

Kathy said...

yes, that is the phrase I was searching for - a strip of the weft.